Fragmentation
It is a heavy matter for a person to try to reclaim themselves.
Author:
Hajid Muhammad
Publication Date:
2016/1437
Book Classification:
Literature
Publisher:
Authors' Books
Number of Pages:
127
Format:
Paperback
Second Edition
I stayed here for a long time, I did not live this life as expected for any child.
My mother told me that I was ready enough to grow up.
Suddenly, she says: Childhood does not suit you,
You are growing up before your time, my son,
Bigger than you should be, too big to look small.
Well, here I have started quickly,
Chewing my life voraciously,
Pulling the days towards me,
Adding weight to my small body,
Throwing my voice in the face of this existence,
Asking it, trying to understand it.
I did not realize that this life does not reconcile with those who try to understand it,
This life that does not harm children,
Devours me every time I grow up,
I wish I hadn't grown up.
For someone to write you in a way that makes you see yourself in their words.. to translate your confusion, to read the details of feelings that raged silently within you.. to branch out into forgotten threads that you have tried to forget or ignore!
For someone to awaken the sleeping self within your chest..
And to draw out its exhalation and inhalation, so it speaks!
For the noise inside you to accumulate and not subside, and its flames to be extinguished by confessions you were unable to utter one day!
Simply put, I lived those details while reading the book.. I drowned in its few pages, which I wished would be longer.
I was ready for this beautiful astonishment.
The book describes several mixed feelings between fear, loss, weakness, and resentment, and between presenting oneself with a complete strength that does not accept fragmentation! ✨
The conclusion at the beginning of the pages described the complete impulse of the self, either complete submission or a bloody fall that does not recognize mediocrity.
Finally, the beauty in the book reaches the depth.